Well, it's official. I've played in a band. All my life I've dreamt of being the one up there on stage. But i never thought that it would be so humbling. The first week I performed, I hated it to be quite honest. The only reason that I hated it was because I felt like I was in a constant battle with Satan. He kept on telling me, you're not meant for the stage. You're not talented like all of these other people. You're meant to teach piano to students who will be come someone. At first I thought it was God telling that this isn't where I was supposed to be. But now that I look back at it, there's no way it could've been God telling me. He put me up there in the first place. But I realize something now. I have to become someone in order to teach someone how to become someone...right? I don't know if he wants me to teach piano to "future somebody’s" or to become someone and not teach anyone. And I hate to say that now, because it's my senior year in H.S. That leaves me to not knowing what I want to major in or where I want to go. The first week playing, with all that was going through my mind, there was no way I could've worshipped up on that stage. And it being my first time up there with a band, I had built up nervousness on top of that. But I have played for 2 weeks now. and the second week, after realizing this, I wouldn't want to be any place else. Than where God wants me to be. So anyone reading this, pray that this satisfaction continues. I don't like being in the midst of a battle of uncertainty. So also pray that God lets me know where to go to major in what He wants me to major in
