Beginner's Luck, by Lindsay Hollowell

I’m sorry I have been so distant

Maybe I’m the one who’s missing it

It’s just that I’ve never done this before

This human tug-of-war

One side tells me that I’m in control

The other tells me just to let go

But it seems like you’ve already won

At this game that’s not much fun

No beginner’s luck

Frankly, I suck

I told myself this couldn’t happen

I’m sure the heavens are laughin’

We try to so hard to make it work

But it seems like all we do is jerk

The universe

One orbit at a time

Is it really worth it?

We haven’t crossed any lines yet,

But we sure have walked on some

We’re like drunkards

Trying to pass a test

Maybe it’s pointless.

I want a purple sky

I want the oceans tide

I want to hear the birds sing

I want all that God's crafted for me

But where do you fall in this masterpiece?

Just be patient with me

I can find time.

Will you?

I don’t want it to be this way

But that’s all I have to say.

You and me

Standing still

In the depths of our thoughts

Clueless.