This picture was taken right after Christmas. I had just gotten my digital camera and was playing around w/ it. Ain't it awesome ;)

Beauty

I want to feel beautiful. I refuse to admit that is why I am going to be in the pageant because it's not. I don't want a panel of judges to tell me I'm beautiful, I just want one guy. One guy! One guy that thinks I'm normal, sure I can be kinda weird sometimes, but so can everyone else. So, what detracts them (guys) from me? What makes me not special enough to date? I have so many girls tell me that I'm pretty. I'm so pretty, why don't guys see that, why don't they want to date me? I'm tired of hearing that they are too afraid to ask me out on a date. I don't believe it anymore. I want the truth. Even if I can't handle it. I'm tired of all the depression, anger, lies and confusion.