Thursday, August 24, 2006

The Time is Near

Well, it's been a week of getting to know people and going through boring sessions and listening to professors talk about things I already sort of knew. Now I must enter into the real world again. I must be attentative and studious. I must work hard at my choice of practice. Two hours in front of the piano minimum will be expected of me more than likely. Many of these people I saw this week, I will see very little of. Much like church camp, I have not fulfilled what I've come here to do. (Form relationships with different people). I have a tendency of forming a click, and never leaving it. The people I have hung out with are my roommate, suitemates and random short conversations with people I don't remember their names. Why do I do this? Why do I not reach out and get to know others? Am I afraid? Do I avoid people I don't want to form relationships with? And why do I not want to do that? They're just as human as I am. It seems as if this week has brought up a bunch of questions about why I choose to do what I do...and I don't know. I don't know why I form clicks, I don't know why I have trouble showing people how I truly feel. I'm sure some of it is because of my past, but surely it's not all of that. Because as long as I remember I've been this way.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Finally here!

Well, I'm finally here. Planning this for a long time. I don't have that much time to write and plus, i'm tired...so i just wanted to let my wonderful friends know that I'm really excited for the school year to start. I love learning about new things and daily learn, and so, i can't wait to study what I love almost ALL DAY EVERYDAY!!!! lol...anyways. short blog, but i like my roommate and SWEETmates! so it's goin great so far! I hope that everyone in Lufkin is doin great too! I miss every single one of them!!! Well, i'll post an update later on! Take care guys

Lindsay